29th July
Song of the day: Too Little Too Late - Neyo ft. Brandy
Forgiveness. Hatred. Misery.
Certain someone -
I know I did you wrong. Hatred is acceptable. I could say I hate myself for what I have done to you, it was thoughtless. It happened repeatedly, twice, that's unforgettable. I can't regret how much I put you through, till the point you said "I need time." I understand. I didn't think of all the consequences that would come my way, I didn't think through all that has happened. Meaningless as my words would sound, I know your reading...well not just that but I am hoping you are reading. You could be sick of all the guys at the moment but it won't be long until you start to love one of them - again. It's going to be painful during the time, but your strong - you wouldn't need to complain about a thing about this. You will pull through. I can't apologize enough for my mistakes, I'm just sorry that you have to be the one that is going through the pain whilst someone else could be doing that, if I could...I'd rather be the one suffering it. But until this is over and as time passes by...one day it will be fine again although you'll never forget the pain I put you through: you can hate me as long as forever. I deserve that. But if it's not fine then it's not over. So I'll wait just to be friends again, sounds stupid right now but it's true. Sorry once again.
Just tell me it'll be alright... =D
Anyways, memories will be memories. What topic should it be about today? Clingy. Party animals. I don't get why sometimes people can be so clingy, I believe giving each other space is the best. Being in a relationship especially - chixs/guys being clingy...is weird. Yes, you can be clingy from time to time but if your always clingy, it's just over the board. I know you care and really want to show it, you could be scared of losing the one you love but what's making them leave you and have enough of you is when your being the most clingy-est person out. C'mon who doesn't like personal space? Freedom (have it's limits). If you don't like freedom, I think your in the head or something, I seriously don't get you if you don't like freedom. Being "strict" on your partner is fine...I guess or is it? I don't like being "strict" on her but she ask me to, weird ay...but it just shows her that I really care about her - that's to her meaning. Not to mine at all, I like giving her space, freedom but everything has it's limits. You could stop what your doing for me and I will do that same for you but again it depends. Drug free is me. A promise that I'll try and keep coz I don't want you to stress about me and get worried, I'm pretty sure I will be the same if you weren't drug free. Sometimes I look pass couples that aren't drug free, how much one stresses for the other and get worried, I'm glad that either of us have to go through that much stress. It didn't hit me until I saw them arguing and see one of them stress - being a man and taking it all in until I asked him. It was clear he cared about her, but he just wanted her to have fun! Of course fun is good, but without you telling her...she wouldn't know what your thinking. So that was sorted out but back to clingy...it's just better that you tell your partner what's going on instead of letting her guess. I rather things that way, even when I tell you...you can be pissed but you understand. I know you do. x]
Party animal? I guess party in a while wouldn't hurt. But when it's all the time it gets crazy. Parties could be fun without all the after effect or the drugs faced, alcohol in take...it doesn't have to be all about those to have fun. Being together with friends is just fine, but at the end of the day...parties will be parties. You know all the dramas that could happen at a party? When all the funny shit that happens and all the bad. So I saw Julz (party princess) being depressed...coz her "man" was not happy about her with all the party and Julz was talking about going to parties and doing shit. Yeh you know ... stupid shit. Stressful shit. KO shit. hahaha! Not going to tease that abo about it or say that much about it throughout this blog but yeh, is parties all worth it? Making your partner get worried coz your doing that shit. Getting high then it comes hitting you down low afterwards. The after effect which Julz said "no effect". hahaha! Taking care at parties are the most important sequence out, being careful about what your taking in...it could be dangerous and it can become addictive but do you really want to get attached to all of them right now? What's going to happen with your life ahead? Have you thought about the future? I guess I haven't actually thought about it myself until that someone pointed it out to me. She made me realise that it will get me no where and she didn't even like the idea of me doing that. So as I said before - promise has been made & it will be kept. Julz - I know your a party animal/princess but I just want you to take care ayyyy abo =D
Julz gave me consent that I could have her as an example in my blog. The party princess!
For all them party animals/princess/prince: take care and take them shit easy. One day you will realise how pathetic those shit are but until then just have fun & keep safe!
Cause everybody makes mistakes
It's something everybody goes through
I'm not afraid to say: "I'm sorry" ..
That's something other people don't do
And I will take the blame for everything
Cause everybody makes mistakes
What can I do to make you see ...
I'm only human?
I know, I said it a thousand times
But "sorry" doesn't cut it
I'd like to make it right
I know my chances are slim to none.
It's something everybody goes through
I'm not afraid to say: "I'm sorry" ..
That's something other people don't do
And I will take the blame for everything
Cause everybody makes mistakes
What can I do to make you see ...
I'm only human?
I know, I said it a thousand times
But "sorry" doesn't cut it
I'd like to make it right
I know my chances are slim to none.
- JLe.
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