4th August
Song of the day: Save Those Words - Lil Eddie
So there was them depressing times, but I really think I should be over that now, I don't want to carry this frown around, I don't want to be down and all. I'm going to be happy coz I know that's what you'd like, I know your happy too coz it really does seem like it. Wasting time being down is not an option anymore, I thought I'd be lost until someone pointed out that I'm stronger than this..I can carry on coz it's always been Smiles No Frowns.
We talk, you said it that last time & said you won't say it ever again...damn it was good but it cut me when you said you won't say it ever again. Shit go. Are you sure that it'll be like this? You won't say it again? Damn girl...
When we first started; I thought you wouldn't mean much, you wouldn't stay for long, you wouldn't care about me...you proved me wrong, made me realise you were actually different, yeh I've heard all those stories, all them shit in the past - it doesn't get to me coz that wasn't you person I knew, the person I knew was different. People telling me you changed being with me, I can't say much coz I didn't know you earlier...people were shocked but I wasn't, coz you were the person I knew today. The one that was my boo. Either ways; it was good to actually hear from other people that you changed, changed while you were with me - it makes me happy that it actually happened when I didn't expect it. S'all good coz you liked the way you were too, being you was how you were around me, I'm glad you didn't have to fake anything while being with me. Thank you for everything, giving us a go & all - I won't regret the times I spent with you. =D
He said, she said...time we let go? Maybe right. I know that I'm saying that I will let go but really I'm just going to hold onto this, I can't imagine it differently. Weird =S So lets count on this; been in love before & didnt think that I'd be in it again - thought I was wrong coz I fell for you. Fell in love with you. I could say I've been there, done that but really I can't coz this love was different, I actually don't know what it's about, I don't like having all these confused feelings. Maybe it's you? You made me realise how love was suppose to be. I wish this experienced could of last but it didn't & I won't fuss about it anymore coz at least there was this time I spent with you. Coz at the end of the day it's not about the breath I take, it's about the breath that took me away. (L)
Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings. - Anais Nin
So I didn't think that many people read this blogspot of mine but thanks to those who read it =D thanks for caring and all everyone =]
- JLe.
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