1st August
Song of the day: Open - RL
You don't know who your true friends are until something dramatic arrives...true or what?
So a liL someone said something quite sad (in a loser way not depressing way), whoever saw it wasn't happy about what they saw. She got aggro at that person that wrote the sad shit, she wrote back & showed her disgust towards that person...you wouldn't really know how fcuken special this person is to me, blackiie my sis x] so she gets aggro with me. Sweet stuff, she's heading off to do her business witht that person...hopefully nothing bad happens to blackiie coz I don't want no pain heading for her, or I will go afhgihaigiha...yeh all mumble jumble so no one would like to see this - straight out. Whatever happens, you know I got your back like you got mine - you wouldn't lie to me, like I wouldn't lie to you. You know I'm here when you need a shoulder, or me just being here for you, you know I'm always here; honestly! Anything for the blackiie sister of mine. x]
You know what's hard...?
When your stuck in the middle of two of your very close people. So I hear one story about the other and yeh...I don't want anything to happen between them two coz they both mean so much to me, I don't want them to get hurt or anything bad to happen to either of them. What do you do when your stuck in between? I can't walk away like I don't know what's happening...I can't act like I don't know what's going on, but instead I'm just left in the centre of the circle whilst each one of them are on either side. Silly aint it? Crazy isnt it? I don't know how to stop them if something does happen coz I don't want to lose either person, I don'twant them to think I'm taking sides coz I aint of course. Big problem is just that they won't listen but go instead of what I'm telling them to do, fahhh..this is getting tense. But I hope they can work it out soon - or ... (be positive).
GREAT! That person is talking to me again...infact "it" started the convo x] It surprised me at first but we'll work it out, I'm not sure if everything's ok now...but the person I hurt and deeply regret...has started talking to me - again. I'm happy about this but there's just another part of me that isn't happy...it seems like I did so much wrong that when I talk to that person it just makes me think back on what happened. Coz we're hanging on a thread - not sure of what's lying ahead for us now. When you didn't talk to me and when you said you needed space, I couldn't stand it, I still wanted to talk to you but it was the right choice on what you said - to give you space. Now that your talking to me again, it's weird coz I don't know how I'm feeling about this, it could be great but it can also be sad...I don't know, but I know it's a good thing that we're talking again although it will be a bit weird. One step at a one time will make it better in the future run...I know it. =D
Smiles No Frowns .
- JLe.
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