26th August
Song of the day: - nothing today.
It's getting annoying, not really but it kinda is getting to me. I don't like it when you think everything is alright but really it's not. They ask you something & you don't know how to respond to it but when you think about it, it's kinda true. Getting cut about it, fcuk that...don't wanna get caught up in that. It's not that serious after all, even if so...it's just a bit too quick. You don't really know how much it means to you coz you feel it but then you don't.
You think your in it, feeling all this & that but really - it is true? Or are you just lying to yourself? You know that "it" means something to you but is it enough for this to be going on? When you truly ask yourself this...it's true that it'll never be enough, it'll never mean more than it does right now - & maybe it won't grow at all...you can't lie about it but you hope that your truly not lying to yourself. You wish you could actually tell yourself that it's not how it's shown out to be, but what's going on now - can't be much more.
Feeling it, then not anymore. It's crazy right? You see 'it' but your happy - but then...it's just a little feeling, nothing so much. You'd thought there would be more to it, actually ... maybe not. It's cool, things going slow - are the way it's suppose to be, I hate jumping in..then falling out later, getting hurt? Nah, that's just enough for now - don't wanna go through that again & hopefully I won't have to. Hoping nothing would turn out wrong, don't wanna hurt you -ever. But how about if you would, what can I do about it...just have to see, I guess.
S'all good. Take it easyyyyy... x]
- JLe.
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