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These are the memories recorded, I won't fight it. I just gotta face it.
Past, Present & Future!

7th July
Song of the day: City Of My Heart - Lil Eddie

It's sorter weird; how you get all mixed signals & feel like your being led on but it's your fault if you fall for it. So I'm not going to be stupid & fall for it, you cannot control me; I won't let you take over me. I don't want to be the loser coming back later looking like a fool, being all fcuked up again. So this is it for now, if you really want it back you should be coming for it - not me, I've been chasing for long enough now. Game's over for me.

So yeh, its my fault for doing this & that...yeh ok then..Sorry, put the blame on me. I'll accept it if it makes you happier & that it makes you feel lighter from all the problems around you. Blaming it on me, doesn't bother me really - in fact I don't mind at all; coz there's more things to worry about than this. What's worst is that you give me mixed feeling, all these signals all over the place, telling me to go here or there. Saying all these things...that's making me think & get lost over, telling me we'll get back & all... don't tell me this coz you know your going to make me wait even if your telling me not to, you know I am. So maybe if you didn't tell me, I wouldn't of even thought about this problem, making me fall over the place. People tell me that it's stupid coz your leading me on & that your trying to control me, are they right or ARE THEY RIGHT? I don't think they're wrong, coz they're probably right...but what's stupid is that I don't want to believe them but... a part of me does.

Why do I have to in this for? As much as I don't want it, I do; but there are too many problems lying around & it's all weird coz everything's all over the place. What's good was that you & blackiie made up =D hahaha funny how I called her and 3way you guys, you started talking to her & apologising about what had happened...& all blackiie's reaction was "err..this is awkward!" but that's s'all good now coz you guys worked things out. One less problem to worry about. Erased for now and all - I'm happy about this!

Anyways..I wonder issert coz you feel alone at the moment, you want me to call you all those names I used to...or issert coz you really want to hear it? Is it just to make you feel better or is it that you want it to be like before? How can someone make me think this much? Why don't you just really tell me what you want instead of making me guess, I know I've done that to you before & I know you don't like me making you guess...but your doing exactly the same now. Messy business, getting all tangled up - not cool.

Don’t know why we had an argument,
All I know is that my baby left.
Now I’m looking at a photograph,
Thinking all about the time we spent.
And I can't even begin to start,
You’re not here, it tears me apart.
But you gotta know that I need you,
Girl I‘m lost and I don’t know where to go to.

- JLe.

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