15th September
Songs of the day: Second Hand Smoke - Lil Eddie & Sideline - Marina Chello
Better than yesterday, hoping for a brighter tomorrow. It was all f*cked up the night before, too much happened; so unexpectedly. So I was stupid enough to okesmay in my oomray & got aughtcay, pretty f*cked up ay? Lectures after lecture & my baby got taken away ... by that I meant my phone. Oh wells ...
& I hope I get it back soon & the lectures will stop ...
On the other hand, it was good to let everything all out; I'm glad you know & that's all that matters. It's true that I caused so much pain & all, but I didn't mean to. Although you mentioned that you would've understood the situation, I reckon it would of been hard coz I wouldn't want to have been in a position like that either or ever know of it. But I'm glad you took the time to hear me out & let me tell you things, yes ... I know it was hard for you to take it all in but you did & it's not how you feel right now but it's what you really know that matters.
Truly, I've said it so many times I don't want anything & there was no use in really telling you. All that I've kept in is out in the open now & that's better for me but maybe not for you coz yeh..I don't know, but I don't want things to change in a bad awkward way. & if you still don't feel comfortable about it, I hope you do come & talk to me about it; at least I would know some things coz that's better than nothing & to hear you being all mumbled jumbled from other people...does make me worried. So yeh, hope you hear me out & all ... coz I never meant to hurt you; never wish I did.
So I was reading past my old blogs that I've posted, some were to a limit what I would call " stupid " & yeh I do admit I was ay? So there were a couple of blogs I deleted & it's coz that don't mean shit to me anymore, long gone & it's left behind doors now. Live for the present & just waiting for what the future will unfold.
Then tell me that;
it's not just me.
That can't go to sleep,
unless i feel your heart beat.
You make it easy to breathe;
and it's not just me.
That can't get enough,
cos i'm so crazy in love.
You're all i ever think of;
that it's not just me.
Saving every minute we've got,
I'm hoping that it's not just me.
it's not just me.
That can't go to sleep,
unless i feel your heart beat.
You make it easy to breathe;
and it's not just me.
That can't get enough,
cos i'm so crazy in love.
You're all i ever think of;
that it's not just me.
Saving every minute we've got,
I'm hoping that it's not just me.
- JLe.
Yadda yadda yadda...