17th September
Song of the day: Unglued - One Call
As sick & tired as you are of this, I've learnt that avoiding things only makes it harder. I've been through that part of learning but I still haven't caught up to your feelings in one situation yet. It's going to be hard for my to understand or even know how it feels but as I said; I do hope to go through it, so I can at least see your perspective & learn how you would feel.
Nothing's alright & I won't admit that it is, it's how I see this that matters. You could be extremely out of place but to see you like that knowing I've caused it; is worst. Have you thought about that? It would not matter to you coz it really doesn't bother me how I feel. I just want what's good for you & that's all, it's not that I want anything from what I've told you but its killing me...
I admit I just want to rage & shit each time I try & talk but something just makes me tick. It's like a timer inside of me & when it hits a certain spot, I just get so frustrated & want to rage but I can't, I can't do it. I don't want to push the buttons anymore, I really do feel like giving it all up but at a point; I can't. Yeh, it could be funny but I know that giving up is not an option, or is it? Why don't you tell me ... tell me what I should do.
Whatever situation it is, what you say - I'll do it. It could be the hardest thing or the easiest thing, why don't you give me an option. So I can just pick it out & leave it all alone ... coz right now; it's nothing more but just a jumbled up puzzle...I need to put the pieces back in the right order...
I've been through photographs,
With memories of you;
Are flooding my mind right now.
And I can't escape,
Love was suppose to last.
That's what I told you,
I can't believe I messed up.
So bad yeah...
I know it's hard enough to tell you that I'ma change,
You wouldn't listen; I know anyways.
And the truth is I'm such a fool,
Is it too late to say sorry...
You know the best of me,
You loved the rest of me.
You were the one to put me back together,
I'm coming unglued;
Pieces everywhere, I'm barely even there.
Wish I could find my way back to you,
Baby I'm coming unglued.
With memories of you;
Are flooding my mind right now.
And I can't escape,
Love was suppose to last.
That's what I told you,
I can't believe I messed up.
So bad yeah...
I know it's hard enough to tell you that I'ma change,
You wouldn't listen; I know anyways.
And the truth is I'm such a fool,
Is it too late to say sorry...
You know the best of me,
You loved the rest of me.
You were the one to put me back together,
I'm coming unglued;
Pieces everywhere, I'm barely even there.
Wish I could find my way back to you,
Baby I'm coming unglued.
- JLe.
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