6th September
Song of the day: Mad - NeYo
I guess it's best how it is right now. I'm at least happy it was an honest thought, coz after I heard "I need to talk to you about something serious", it came to me straight away - but the fact that you said don't worry after made it worst. It was clear you already made up your mind & it's what's good for the both of us, I don't regret any bit of it; the times spent or anything. It was a fair go, coz I didn't expect it to go on for a long time, it's plain to see that now it better than before. You know I'd always be here if you need anything as I stated, I don't hate you or have any weird feeling about it, I 'm just happy now that us both can be happy. So thank you for the times & all, there's nothing more I'd like to say but being friends would be sweet. I'm not going to lie about it coz it did hurt when I heard you say it, but it took time & thought to get to the conclusion. But from now on, it's just going to be heads up high & smile. =]
Today is father's day, it's funny coz I made a father's day card but then...it wasn't for my daddy, it was for my uncle. It's not my fault I don't see or talk to daddy much, it's just that his got more things in mind to do, I don't blame him for being away coz I know he'd always be around when I need anything. Today's the day to appreciate what your daddy has done for you, more or less; even if he wasn't there all the time, he made an effort, so I don't have anything bad to say. You can't always depend on daddy; coz you have to learn to be independent! That I've learnt & I'll always keep that in mind - not sometimes BUT always. So I hope daddy had a great day today & I just want him to know that I love him. x]
So I was talking to Dinh last night after everything happened, I guess it's good to know someone has been through it enough to know what I'm thinking & feeling right now. Like Quynh(retart) said; "you can lie to me but you can't lie to your heart". Dinh knows how it's like after something serious & things end up bad, all you want to do is just play the games; it's true. All the other ones after the serious ones are all f*cked up, you can't keep in mind that it's just going to go wrong each time, things happen & things go wrong. Waiting for "it" won't make a difference coz you got to go through the trouble then end up being happy & back to square one, it is. So from now; it might be just all games - but no one needs to get hurt, I hope for that.
& something's special on this day. It's Tram's birthday! =] Happy 15th Birthday sis! Even though things went wrong & didn't go to plan, in the end; you know that everyone is here for you & it was a shame that it didn't work out to how you planned it. But at least you got to spend time with your loved ones & people who care about you, don't worry - it'll be a bomb ass time next year & you know it! Just take care & don't forget I'm always here for you sis; the punches & all. =]
- JLe.
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