13th, 14th & 15th October
Song of the day: I Don't Wanna Know - Mario Winans
This is an extra long blog. Get ready ... =]
S'all sweet. Some people just never understand how lucky they are until they lose their someone "special". It's true right? & some people gets bored of the chase ... but some still continues after they've got what they wanted; they just want more. Some people can be a total bitch but that's their way of showing they care. You never really have the right ways to show to someone how much they mean to you.
So there's this someone, I do feel sympathy for her but it's all I can really say. I know I can't do much about the fact of sympathy but a bit of advice here & there would clearly help her in one way or another. You can't tell them what to know, but the most you could do is empathize... You could tell her all the things she'd like to hear but what good will that be for her? Will it help her achieve anything if her heart is still in the same place as it was left? Continuing from my [5th, 6th, 7th & 8th October] blog.
You know you've been left behind whilst his out there having fun, your all alone being fed up of this shit but what good is it to just cry your eyes out? Having salty tears running down your face, it's alot of pain but the cries won't make the pain go away but instead bring more to people. Think of all the people that actually care about you, how much they are worried about you when your in such a state. You can say you "love" him, "need" him, "want" him but you know his truly off with another, you know that chance has slipped away but knowing the truth would only pull you down even more & if so; you just have to deal with the fact love is hard to understand & you'll have to stand up to yourself & face the fact that it is reality at the moment. You can't live through the past but you can only live the present & go on to the future. There's no point in staying in one spot, knowing that he left you like that to go on with another. You, yourself will have to pull yourself through, yes .. you can have all the sympathy you can get, all the "I hope you feel better & tomorrow's a new day" sorter cliche shit but you .. have to pick yourself up & truly move forward.
Like a lift, you have to tell it which direction to go, the doors could be automatic but it's the part you have to choose which is manual or the lift will go no where & there ... your just stranded. It's not like he was always there, he tried but it's not the fact how much time, minutes, years, you've spent together but it is the fact he did not see how much of a person you were with him. How he treated you was wrong & we cannot blame anyone for that, we can't blame the other girl, we can only blame how his love faded off with another. It's true, when your love has gone away; nothing you do can truly bring it back to one place unless there's time & paitence in it.
There's no better advice I could give you than to just move forward, be manual enough to let it go, let the automatic door have it's ways & let the person out coz as long as you trap yourself with his thoughts, you'll go no where. & your just putting yourself in deeper pain & overtime you won't be able to take it no more & that's when things get even messier. You got the support you need, but it's all NOTHING if you don't support yourself. Have the courage to move on, just a tiny weeny bit can make a big difference. You just have to try something new in order to learn & this was something hard to go through but you've opened a new door into life, into the real society...& as you go through pathways, you'll only ever learn more.
Enough of that for now, so back to work soon in a couple of days; gay,gay,gay. Just gotta live life I guess, can't complain about all the work coz at the end of the day it's how much you've been through & what you get out of it. You do learn something new everyday & for that I thank the people around me. =] What more can I brag about? ... hahaha! The girlfriend's good, love life is good, life is aiight - can't complain, food is the best! Ok .. I realized I can be the best listener when I need to be & I can give out advice about shit all & it's just great listening to other people coz when I feel like the worlds a bummer, I can just think back & go "Hay! It's not that bad coz someone could be going through more shit than I am now." :) So we all just got to think of the positive side of life, only got one life to live right?
& oh did I mention ... my mummy (Julz/Princess) gives me allowance now, every week she's going to give me ONE DOLLAR! Like shizzzzzz dhaymnn... she's like the best mummy out, the abo mum & someone who makes me live in poverty, so .. Thanks Mum, your the BEST! 8-)
I don't wanna know,
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low.
Cause my heart can't take it anymore,
And if your creepin, please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't wanna know...
Oh baby,
I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe,
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby keep it to yourself...
If you're playin' me, keep it on the low.
Cause my heart can't take it anymore,
And if your creepin, please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't wanna know...
Oh baby,
I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin in your eyes, I can't believe,
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby keep it to yourself...
- JLe.
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