23rd October
Song of the day: One Time - Justin Bieber ft. JRyrez ..
Another long blog - be prepared.
How protective can one get? Does it come to a point where your overprotective or is it just caring? How does the person actually feel about it? Do they appreciate that you care or .. do they just think that your just killing their space?
I used to think that caring was just caring and being protective was just being protective. I thought that the other person was just not giving me enough space & it was so controlling to a point where I would just stop something to make the other happy. Yes, I don't mind doing that, I don't mind stopping anything for just one person but you just have to think if they will do the same for you right? You can't always be the one to "stop" or your just being controlled & taken advantage of coz you feel weak inside just coz of them.
I can be protective but I don't think that it's a bad thing now, I realize that it means you just really care & don't wanna lose them, but I also know when it's time to stop being so protective. I know the feeling & I've been there - done that. I don't want anyone to feel like they got less space coz of me coz at a point...it does get annoying. I understand. =]
We know that we sometimes just need our own time, do whatever, we just have to trust each other & be sure that nothing bad will happen. We can get paranoid but all we have to do is "ask" & not be afraid to, even when it turns into something so ugly; we know the truth & that will keep us from being "paranoid".
So .. there was a time yesterday when I was talking to Huy & Quad but mostly Huy (gay face). =D It's does get something out of you when you have the "guy talks", just like when chixs have their "girl talks". We learn something new & we feel more free & open talking about stuff we wouldn't talk to chixs about, well the majority of them. When guys open up, we feel like something's been lifted & there is a less of a weight we're caring. So Huy & I learnt that sometimes things just never work out, when it's time to just give up & people can be led on .. but when the truth comes out, that's when you really regret something & go fck it.
It's like; there are times when you just have to stop waiting even as much as you love them & care. Just imagine you were stuck in a room & you cannot be out of the room, you just have to stay there for a long long while ... So, you'll just think that the certain someone will wait but how long will they actually wait for or will they not wait at all? You know that you'll wait for that certain someone & you'll stay true, but how do you know that their heart won't change? There are points in life where you just have to stop right? You know that it'll get you no where & as long as you see that person happy even though it will be with someone else, it hurts you deep but you'll do anything for them just to be happy. You'll hide the pain & you'll just take it all in for yourself coz you love them.
You know when someone does you wrong & when they apologize; you just accept it straight away...& when you apologize to someone for something; they'd just raise their voice at you...==" Guys are weak inside, but we're stronger on the outside whereas chixs are the opposite; the majority of them. It's just like when we hear their apology even if it was something they did so wrong & deep down we know that it's so risky but we'll still accept it knowing the fact they did something like that, we'll just put it aside coz we love them so much. & when you realize that the person could just leave you so instantly when you do something wrong; you'll start to think. How can we be so weak & just accept it at the instant & wanting to keep trying more?
We just got to leave through it & not bring up the past coz we all know that you cannot live the present when we're still living in the past & we cannot have a future without moving forward. We don't bring up what happened coz we love them enough to always accept them & our love for them are stronger than what other has to say right?
& I know this has been a pretty long blog but ... I just want to add on; HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUYNH LE (Retart), I hope you had a wonderful day with heaps of presents & clothes, heels, etc..you name it! =D Your 17 now & its close to an age when you become an adult so you better take care & always smiles no frowns!!
- JLe.
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