24th October
Song of the day: Do You - Neyo
You know its kinda funny & weird when you confess with someone you love coz something they don't know; they do find out & they start to think. It's hard to confess but when you start but after you get into it, it gets easier & it's feels less uncomfortable to talk about something or "it".
When you get to learn about someone more, you find out stuff when they "confess" & at times you do start to think coz of what you heard from them & what they did before. I'm not saying there's anything that I did that was all great before in a relationship but it wasn't that bad either - or at least to me. It could have been bad to you but whatever happens, happen & it's not that I wanted to hurt them that bad even wanted to but it just happens & for the consequences .. I did get it back.
I could of told you things like how I got bored & shit like that & you could be really insecure now & start to wonder but I'm just going to say that it's different now, I'm not like that anymore. Nothing I did before is going to happen in this relationship or well I won't do anything that will hurt you but who knows about you ay?
To hear what you had done before, its surprising & I'm just really not sure about what will happen or will it happen again? It's weird how I find out something like that & it could have happened ages ago but to hear of it just makes it really werid & it just makes me get nervous & a liL paranoid. >_>
Well ... whatever will happen, does happen so I can't stop it any possible way. I just gotta take it easy & remind myself something ever day to always look out. I won't let anything stop me from questioning you so if you find it too much & all, all you need to do is just tell me & I'll stop or at least cut it down. Even when I'm asking it's just that I wanna know & want my answers from you instead of guessing. I hope you'll do the same, never just assume but make sure its true.
So lets all play the confessing game ...
- JLe.
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