15th, 16th, 17th November
Song of the day: Lonely When Your Gone - Andrea Martin, All The Thank I Get - Andrea Martin, Long Gone - Nelly
Isn't it annoying when someone is thinking about something or has something on their mind but when you ask them it's always a "nothing"? Yeh, I do that too but I'll try to stop coz I just realized how frustrating it makes me feel when someone does that to me, it gets to a point when I just want to rage the fcuk outta them but I can't .. well not her anyways.
During the relationships I've been through, I have learnt that "nothing is something". & you can't really hide it when it's clear in your face that something is wrong. You can't deny the truth & you can't hide it either, you can't runaway from them coz it'll just catch up to you & make you think about more shit which will hurt you emotionally. It's not fair being in a relationship if your going to think what your confused about or how your feeling & think it's something stupid. You can't just keep it to yourself coz it'll make an affect on the relationship, it'll pull us apart if things don't get solved as soon as possible.
You can be feeling so much emotions within you & you can believe stuff that's not true but what good is that if your just going to keep it all inside? Part of a relationship is sharing, no matter how stupid you think you are; just let the other decide with you so you don't have to go through something alone. Sometimes, you may feel insecure & make you think different of things but once you tell the person, the person can reassure you that what your thinking is just plain stupid coz if you think about how much we've been through, I'd be stupid to mess it up. I don't want you going through any pain, coz what I feel for you is really deep.
Whenever you feel funny about something, you know you can tell me coz I want to know what your thinking, stupid or not. Just let me in, I'll always be here. I can be myself around you & that's what I love about being with you, I can be the biggest kid out, tease you & just be stupid ... coz there's not one bit of you that judges me. I love who I am when I'm with you coz for sure you can be yourself around me too even though your a complete spastic, retarded idiot...I still love you. =D
Keep telling stories,
Till you're the only one who believes them.
Keep having excuses,
Why you can't say where you're leaving ...
I can't depend on you lately,
Cos your love hates me;
Cos you bring me up then down.
We keep doing it over,
It's weighing on my shoulders;
What now?
Cos no matter what I do,
It's always my fault;
And this is all the thanks I get.
All i try to do is give you the best;
And this is all the thanks I get.
How can I win,
If you never let me in?
Can't believe we're back to this,
This is all the thanks I get.
Don't wanna lose when it comes to you,
Why you treat me like it's nothing new;
This is all the thanks I get.
Till you're the only one who believes them.
Keep having excuses,
Why you can't say where you're leaving ...
I can't depend on you lately,
Cos your love hates me;
Cos you bring me up then down.
We keep doing it over,
It's weighing on my shoulders;
What now?
Cos no matter what I do,
It's always my fault;
And this is all the thanks I get.
All i try to do is give you the best;
And this is all the thanks I get.
How can I win,
If you never let me in?
Can't believe we're back to this,
This is all the thanks I get.
Don't wanna lose when it comes to you,
Why you treat me like it's nothing new;
This is all the thanks I get.
- JLe.
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