9th, 10th, 11th November
Song of the day: Break Your Little Heart - All Time Low, Can U - Lil Eddie
I'm so glad I downloaded new songs today, so new song of the day instead of the old songs over & over again or whatever. But s'all good, old songs aren't that bad I suppose; some of them sound better than the new ones & more meaning. I love my R&B + Slow jamz.
So what's been happening? There's not much I guess but things are going up hill these days, nothing I really need to stress over. Everything's so fine right now & I really don't wanna jinx it coz things are falling into place well as it seems, even if shit comes up; it's aiight.
There are times when I hear shit I don't like, it's just what I need to hear I guess...after all what are your ears for right? Sometimes when you hear shit about someone you just really don't want to think about ... it comes up, wish it just never does but it does I guess & what can you do about it? You thought things were fine until you hear her name ... nothing needs to be said but when that comes up, that's when things bug you so much coz you know what you've been through yourself but when that person comes back & comes around ... you just really hate it.
So I thought I didn't need to here your name ever again or anything but why .. just why .. did it have to come back up? What is happening? Why out of all people, place, whatever do you have to come by? It's like a nightmare coming to life again, I hate it, I really hate it. Why can't you just leave me alone & you probably are but in some way or any other .. I tend to hear your name or things about you. I don't want it but I can't ignore it. I tried my best to but I really can't & I hate how this has to work out.
You come for the guys that's far away from you only coz the one's there know all the shit you've done, all the shit you've had & it seems that everything is bad & I didn't see it earlier but when I did, I regret everything. Now I see why people said "you've changed" or shit like that when I was there ... but everything was a show I guess coz I'm happy I saw the real side of you too like every other there did. Words didn't change my mind but what I saw & know now, I did & I'm glad everything changed. You can have all these guys you want but what good is it if it's only something so fake? ... What a life you have, it's so shameful.
Oh & Happy 5 Months to Tram & Huy, good luck.
The D&M talk with Quad ( Daddy), I hope things do work out soon coz you both got something special, you both just really have to realise but it'll take time & if it's love... just hold on.
Seems like you're always finding new reasons
To exercise your rights to say
All the things you know i don't care to hear
You're sure to share them anyway
You're thinking if you tell me a little louder
Baby that will help me to change
It's as if you're tryna make me turn coward
You think i'm gone runaway
But i gotta tell you that i won't go
Iit really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter to me
I'm never gonna leave so long
It really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter to me
And i don't care
If you feel different, so what if you're not into me
I'll be here consistently, nothing's gonna change
It really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter to me
Cos i'm never gonna leave
To exercise your rights to say
All the things you know i don't care to hear
You're sure to share them anyway
You're thinking if you tell me a little louder
Baby that will help me to change
It's as if you're tryna make me turn coward
You think i'm gone runaway
But i gotta tell you that i won't go
Iit really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter to me
I'm never gonna leave so long
It really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter to me
And i don't care
If you feel different, so what if you're not into me
I'll be here consistently, nothing's gonna change
It really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter to me
Cos i'm never gonna leave
- JLe.
Yadda yadda yadda...