18th, 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd November
Song of the day: Lost Footage - Lil Eddie, Promise Me - Ryan
There are times when you reminisce right? & sometimes that could be a bad thing coz when you thought you've forgotten about them, they seem to somehow appear & catch your attention again. You really don't know what can happen with something so little you do, it's just like browsing through old pictures, some things you don't remember doing or some people you don't remember being with, happen to be there. I guess pictures are the things that don't change when everything around us do. That quote could be true coz "pictures last longer".
I don't know if that could be a good or bad thing but I know some things should not be remembered coz it's truly not worth the time. Even if something was so close, it can be changed into just a little insignificant thing to you now, present & future. That's all I got to believe, it's nothing, nothing to me & it has no meaning. I shouldn't even bring it back up coz that's unworthy, life should be spent better, with the people I love & the people that makes me who I am today. I could thank someone for making me stronger, for changing me completely, but that person doesn't mean anything to me anymore or is anything better than trash. I know that's pretty harsh & deep but overall, I thank her for making me stronger, turning me into someone who has deeper thought into what I do & who I fall for. & most possibly, she was the one who made me feel different about things & makes me become mean, slack, whatever shit it is. But that's cool, I like this. Being me, I guess.
Anyways, over & done with that. Sometimes I like the peace & quiet but most times I like the group, loud & just hanging about but I also didn't know just spending time alone with the person you love could be as much fun & it's not boring coz there's always something that comes up. You could get used to being around the same people, doing the same thing but when something changes, you find it much more interesting & entertaining, it doesn't have to be a big change or doing much, but when you try something different, it's not bad. Sometimes being alone with someone, you get to acknowledge them more & sometimes you can just talk to THEM instead of having people around you, bothering or just talking to you. Instead you can talk to them. I like it I guess, it's fun.
I'm going to start doing that more now, to be honest I haven't really done that since a couple of years, just spending time with the loved one or being alone with just one person properly. Maybe it's just some things that changed me .. but I'll get my act together now.
Other than that, I realise that accepting is a part of life, a part of moving forward & growing up ... =D
- JLe.
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