25th November
Song of the day: That's Entertainment - NeYo
Guess it's good now, worked it out although there was a few dramatic shit that happened. I know there can be times when I become a complete dickhead but there is no time when I stop loving you. You may think that I'm not taking this seriously but truthfully, I am. If I was not taking it seriously, I would have just left you hanging, leave you & never try to contact you but it's not like that coz it's something serious.
I know it takes alot for me to open up, to speak my feelings but sometimes I'm just scared that if I give too much in ... in the end I might be the one getting hurt, & when that happens; I'm sure it'll tear me apart. I know you could be feeling the same & I'm glad you still open up to me so from not on as I promised, I'll start opening up heaps more. I'll let you know things in details about what I'm doing and shit like that. It could be said as reporting to you but I rather not put it that way coz it'll make me not be bothered so I'll just say that your my diary. I can let you know what's on my mind instead of making you guess. Coz when you guess, you get paranoid & when you get paranoid...we argue. I don't want that anymore so it's going to be different now. =D
Your a part of me & I don't want to let you go. Coz when you brought up the word "break" it just shuts me down & there I am ... just blank & didn't know what to say. It's true I don't want that coz we can make our ways around that coz I'm sure I wanna be with you even if I act like a little kid at times & can't have a serious face for more than 10mins without laughing when it comes to a serious talk... but that's just me. & if you love me, you'll put up with it. I know I tend to laugh or giggle or just smile but that doesn't mean I'm not serious, I just can't help it. It's me.
I Love You.
- JLe.
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