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These are the memories recorded, I won't fight it. I just gotta face it.
Past, Present & Future!

1st & 2nd November
Song of the day: Crawl - Chris Brown, This Is It - Michael Jackson, Better Than You - Brandy FT. The Connect

A new month, a month closer to the end of the year. So much to do in so little time, what's going on ay? We're all running out of time for things we really wanna do & things we need to get done. Damn..need to plan instead of last minute shit right? =]

You know when you get curious & you want answers but not your own ones, your wondering about someone else answer instead...but the questions are weird but it doesn't really bother you enough to not ask them coz you just want to know.. You would ask but then the person might think your weird & the question you ask might be a bit "yeh", you don't want them to feel irritated or think bad of you so you just gotta explain yourself after even if they didn't ask. They might not believe your explanation but it's the truth coz the only reason your explaining is coz you do care about them & you do not want them thinking wrong of you.

Heard of dramas, stories but some things are way awkward & different when you know the person; well the both of them. They were a loving couple which now has ended up in a diasterous place, where the both of them are not really who you thought they were; the more mature types. They end up being different, how can someone just act like nothing happened & go on with life? I know I've done that before but everything has it's time & in the end it had been confronted at with the person I've hurt but what now is different when I hear these stories. It's not my place to say that they should get back together or anything but in my opinion, I have to say it. It's weird seeing them together when all I heard are just things that makes me go "WTF" with the most hideous reactions to what they got to say... To hear one of them say that its friends or "family" relation is weird. Have you thought of all the things you guys have been through & I haven't experienced something or things that are near the both of your limits but it's just weird right? How can you take it so simply...? How can you got on everyday with the same problem unsolved?

I don't get it ... but it might be that your both strong, it might be your different from who I am but if I was in your position; I'd like to get things all worked out before leaving it till it all falls tumbling down which will make it worst. It's make you both hate each other or maybe things could be worked out? You tell me, relationship that lasted for such a period of time with so much that happened & so much that you guys have been through... Tell me how you can do it like this? Maybe you think hiding your feelings are being strong, but your wrong coz no one knows how you feel & what you show is what people take in ... it's not that seeing you happy is not good but knowing that it could be just an act is what makes people worried. Your only strong when you do truly show your feelings so people or the partner knows how you feel deep down.

Today I heard a story of a girl & a guy & another. It sounded so familar to me ay, it just got me back into the time when everything was fucked up & I truly do feel sympathy for her coz when you see a chix's tears .. its the time when you get thinking & it's weird seeing them cry coz you can't do anything about it to help them. Yet the only thing you have is a pair of ears to listen out, mouth to cheer them up & give a few advice & ... a pat of the back to help them out, but what is that going to do? Will it actually help them? The story was so familar to me that it made me put myself in her shoes & I could, for once; I could. But it's not anything to be happy about coz at that time it was fucked, just like how she was & didn't know what the fuck was going on; but pulled through coz you just have to follow your heart even when it might not be right. In the end when you made your mistake, you'll learn or just don't make one at all to start off with. It has to be experienced to understand coz you can never know how someone feels until you've experienced it, so don't take words for it but maybe at times it could be the best advice out. Just hope she feels better & gets herself sorted out coz friends are always around! =]

Gave you the benefit of the doubt,
Till you showed me what you were about;
Your true colors came out.

And your words couldn't hide the scent,
Cuz the truth about where you've been;
Is in a fragrance I cant recognize.

Standing there,
Scratching your head.
Blood shot eyes, drunk with regret,
Hanging yourself ten feet over the edge.

Im done with this,
Feeling like an idiot.
Lovin you, Im over it,
I just dont love you, dont love you no more.

- JLe.

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