16th, 17th, 18th & 19th December
Song of the day: Turn The Page - Bobby Valentino
I'll learn from my past mistakes, present ones & change for the best. I won't let my anger out on you anymore, well at least I'll try not to. I don't want you having tears running down your cheeks or feel so much hurt that you always feel when your lost & confused. I want you to know what you want & be sure of it, I'll be less stubborn & less of a bitch; I'll try my best to be the best guy you'll have ever been with or ever be with. Keyword is "TRY".
To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.
Be with who you choose to be & be happy about it. Don't ever misunderstand me, I've always told you that all you need to do is ask me, never hesitate to ask. It's a part of learning & by asking...we would have less arguments over "nothing". What's worst is that our arguments over nothing ends up being so painful & back round again, it makes it seem like some roller coaster ride which tears us apart & brings us back together. I hate these kind of feelings, I hate this cycle.
Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
Missing bits of my heart is when your not around, that I'll have to learn to live on with. There will always be parts of my heart that's not full. I'll always have you in it. Don't ever think that I'm pushing you away coz surely I don't see that happening but your only to be thinking more about it to make it worst, making seem like I am when I'm not. The last thing I wanna do is push you away.
I love her and that’s the beginning of everything.
You are hurting, I am too. The pointless arguments, tears running down, blocked nose...is that all worth it? I only want to make you smile, I only ever want to see you smile but I know you can't help these other emotions & I don't blame you. I could be selfish, I could be a dickhead, I could be anything bad in the world but as selfish as I am, as much of a dickhead I am, you know I love you & somewhere down that path you gotta know I do think about how you feel; I do care. You can call me selfish but if I was selfish I wouldn't agree to anything you do, I wouldn't want anything to do with you but me. You could think that I'm selfish but if you think back, it's not always about me.
What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Sometimes nothing I say sink in, nothing you do will either but this is going to be painful & I don't know why we're risking so much to still be together at this stage though I'm happy about it. I know it's painful & it'll be more & more painful as days comes closer but as much as it hurts; we're still a team. I know we're gonna have these bitchy days we have, these lovey dovey days the next & some quiet times another but no matter how difficult or awkward our love gets, I'll still be sticking by.
Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.
You tell me that it would be hard to move on, but when you think about it... I don't think it would be that hard, hanging about & all; I'm sure someone will come by. Your telling me you don't want another but you will want another, you will love another ... & as much as I don't wanna hear about this, I hear it; I feel it. Nothing I do can stop me thinking about it, it's simple & plain to see but I just really don't want to know. Yes, it'll be hard. Been there, done that. But nothing this big has stroked me, I never thought something like this would & now I'd be only left alone ...
Listen to your heart before you tell her goodbye...
No one can really compare their relationship to ours, no one can actually feel what we've felt & still feel. For this relationship has been at it's highest points to it's lowest points ... neither of us has actually let go. We've been holding onto a thread for so long to only build it up high today but whatever we've built will be tumbling down again. It's like nothing can be stuck together ... nothing is strong enough but the love we have are the most beautiful thing that has happened to me. I never really realized how much I love you until I sit down & look back to what we've actually been through ...
Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.
The biggest mistake I've had was not tell you how much I love you earlier, how I never told you your beautiful everyday, how I always made you mad & stress. All the wrongs I don't wanna look back on, all the hurt I don't wanna relive through...whatever happens, just gotta happen. We've had our time.
I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you.
Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do
I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last
Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do
I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last
- JLe.
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