20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th, 26th & 27th December
Song of the day: Common Denominator - Justin Bieber
Wow it's been a week since I've last blogged, I feel so lazy but s'all good; I'm back on this. So this week was kinda the "Christmas-y" week & at these times nothing really matters other than spending time with your family, friends or just the loved ones. I hope everyone had a great time with heaps of joy & laughter.
Its funny we don't really think about what we say until it becomes something so dramatic. Someone can just turn your words & someone can just misunderstand what your tryna say. Sometimes people don't really see how much they mean to you & it'd be your fault coz you just don't "show" it. But what's worst is when they are not sure, when they think its not true & just don't believe you. I know it's hard & everything isn't well but I tell you I LOVE YOU so you just gotta believe me. Take my word for it.
I hate how it happens, how you just sometimes don't believe me. There isn't a way I can really show you as I already told you, nothing can put together to how much I feel for you; how much I care. Everything you do, I want to know. I care & I get stubborn. It's all apart of who I am, I can't help it. I have temper at times when it's not intentional but it happens ... & I don't like it myself when I have my temper. But whatever I do, you know my heart has you, all of you in it.
So these are the days I see you so alot, most days, even nearly everyday but some days are shorter than others. It don't matter about the time spent coz at least I'm with you, seeing you, spending some time with you is all that matters to me. & this year was the first time I actually spent Christmas with my girlfriend, I never actually bothered to separate my time for people on Christmas, it's usually just going out & doing whatever. But this year was different, this year I wanted to spend time with you, wanted to be with you especially on Christmas. "All I want for Christmas is you..."
There are times I just lay in bed thinking, I know your for me but I know that things are happening soon ... & I hope it was good rather than bad. I don't know what to do, just the thought of not being with you tears me apart but it's aiight; we had our time. & things would probably be different later on ... & nothing will be the same again but I'd be happy to the thought that it happened before. I'll be fine & you will be too. I'll always be missing you.
Sneaking out on the 26th was great. Coz being with you the hold night was amazing, just holding you tight in my arms knowing that you mine ... staying up till early morning even though I could tell you were really tired & don't tell me you weren't coz I know you were! >=]
You're the light that faced the sun,
In my world.
I'd face a thousand years of pain;
For my girl.
Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear.
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here.
I don't want to go back,
To just being one half of the equation;
You understand what I'm sayin'?
Girl with out you I'm lost,
Can't face this focus at heart;
Between me and love.
You're the common denominator -
In my world.
I'd face a thousand years of pain;
For my girl.
Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear.
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here.
I don't want to go back,
To just being one half of the equation;
You understand what I'm sayin'?
Girl with out you I'm lost,
Can't face this focus at heart;
Between me and love.
You're the common denominator -
- JLe.
Yadda yadda yadda...