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Song of the day: Love Me - Event
I don't know why these days my blog are taking me so much effort, taking up so much time. & most time I'm either not in the mood or can't blog. I know there are heaps of things in my head but these are the things I can't really put words into & as simple as it may seem, words just doesn't come out right. It doesn't help what I'm feeling but it kinda gives me a break when I'm blogging.
Before it seemed ages to go, it seems a long time ahead but now ... there's only 3 days until I'm gone. I used to think it'll never really come close but now ... I just have to deal with it as the day comes closer. It makes me miss everything & hate how this is going, I remind myself everyday is a day closer till I'm leaving but it never really sinked in how close I was getting to that day. It's weird & I hate how it's coming, 3 more days and those are my last day of happiness.
We've been talking so much lately & when we do, somehow it's brought up to " love ", it's brought up to us... & when it does, we just carry this on even though sometimes it's hurting to know everything or anything but we have to be honest. Tears fills us up but we gotta continue this journey, we continue with thinking of all the things ... and we know how this will end, but we don't really know how we're going to survive it. It's hard enough for us .. but nothing seems right, I guess.
It's like we got so much closer when we think about it, we can just talk & go on .. lay in bed for hours just talking ... it's like our conversations can't be stopped or get any boring. I don't know what it is but you get my attention all the time. It's like I'm stuck on you. Everything seems like a movie for us, we'd talk about the past & what happened.. & to look back on that now, we've grown so much from that; we've gotten so much closer & made our relationship so much stronger. It's like a bond we have ...
Even though we've been arguing alot lately over the most pathetic things, it's so simple to see we care enough to notice it all. I know I get a lil stubborn & little things you say does get to me, it makes me think & sometimes it just really pisses me off, but overall; I love you & I'll get over it. The retarded pointless arguments we have shows that I love you, & I'm not afraid to let you know how I feel ... but sometimes when I tell you; you just don't believe me. It may sound so unrealistic but to me it's all true & for that I'll just prove you wrong coz only time can tell.
I don't know what it is anymore ... I just know that you have showed me happiness & brought love into my life. I'd scream it out to the word, just for everyone to know; you are the one.
- JLe.
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